weird

So, I'm in a really weird mood. I have this urge to DO something creative so I just finished painting on three surfaces (canvas, paper, and foam board). I did it for my own pleasure so you COULD call them "studies of color"...? Filling in a space with paint or ink is very soothing to me. I mostly squeezed paint straight out of the tube and just painted whatever appealed to me visually. So now I want to create something that has a message or has realism but at the same time that takes soooooo much more effort. I don't know if I can work up the energy. 

Everyone has plans on Friday night but me. There's a semiformal for the art fraternity but I'm not sure I want to go get dressed up and watch everyone else get drunk. I don't even have a date. Not that that's a big deal, but I am just meh about the whole thing, especially since the masquerade was so friggin LAME!!! This one is supposed to be better but I got really excited about last time and I was severely disappointed. Again, I don't think I want to make the effort haha. 

I'm also getting a severe case of cabin fever. I do homework in this dorm, I relax in this dorm, I sleep here, I eat here....I wish I had a CAR so I could just drive and drive away from this place. I like to just drive around with the radio on and the windows down. It's wintertime, but whatever. I want to GO somewhere or DO something and I'm getting burned out on homework so I am sitting here alone blogging on this thing that one person reads. Maybe two. Hrrrrrrrrr.